うすら笑み

Japanese:

うすら笑み

居場所が無いって幸いもんだなって日々感じながら笑ってます

笑って生きてる自分に嫌気がさしたらどうすればいいんでしょう？

腐った周りに転がってる人間みたいに俺も腐ってゆくのか？

解らない　　きっとどうしようもない

自作自演なんてどこから生まれる発想でしょう？

本当は惨めでしょう？

離れはしない　　忘られない　　笑えちゃってどうしようもない

一分後には顔は青ざめ動悸が激しく死という言葉を心の中で

千回叫ぶ一分後は後十秒前

そんなこんなで日々裏切られ続けてへらへら笑って生きてます

へらへらと

胸に風穴があいた僕は達磨人形

性死をかけられ使い飽きればそこは見世物小屋

唾を吐かれて見飽きたらそこは誰もいないいないばぁ~

笑えない

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English: Note: I rewrote most but not all of the lines of the original translation in order to make it more fluent. You can read the original translation on the picture scan.

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Slight smile

Smiling while feeling that it’s difficult to not to have a place to belong

What should I do if I get tired living with a smile?

Like the rotted people lying around me, will I rot too?

I don’t know, surely it cannot be helped

I wonder where the idea of writing and performing one’s own work comes from

The truth is miserable, isn’t it?

Won’t fade away, won’t be forgotten, I can’t help but smile

After one minute, my face turns blue and my heart races, the word death on my mind

Shout a thousand times, still less than ten seconds left until one minute is up

In this way, I am continuously betrayed every day and keep on living, smiling foolishly

Foolishly

With a breathing hole cut in my chest, I am a daruma doll

It’s a matter of sex and death, but if they get bored of me, it’s a sideshow

Spat upon, tired of looking, there will be peek-a-boo with no one

I can’t smile